真夜中の歌が叫んだ 僕本当は一人が嫌いだ 大
22. female. multifandom.
i like strawberry milk.
i can feel myself getting moody again cause the more i think about the job offer the more it puts pressure on me
like i know there’s no actual pressure
but there is
well yes there is actual pressure
if i take the offer i will also take a lot of responsibility and for 22 years i haven’t taken so much responsibility. i feel like i should go slow but there is no going slow in this society and at some point i will have to take a lot of responsibility whether i want to or not
the problem is just that it’s not a job where anyone is actually there to help me when i have a problem, cause no one in this fucking business knows shit about it. they saw that i can handle the thing decently and now they want me to do it, but i feel really uncertain with no one there to help me……
but it’s also a chance. it’s not like i desperately need money, but who says no to money???? i could also work at home, which is basically the coolest thing ever. but it still means that i’m all on my own, and i wonder what would happen if i can’t meet their expectations? are they just going to say ‘well, it can’t be helped’, and then??
now i can’t decide between that and pikachu ;w; i thought pikachu’s silhouette in yellow and then only the red cheeks would look cool on a black shirt but now… the uchiha fan……………….. sahgdhsadj